0820- morning prayer
Breakfast
0930- clinic
-rehydration salts- 8 level tsp sugar; 1 level tsp salt; 1 litre of water (dissolve sugar and salt in boiling water. Then add cold water to equal 1-litre)
-young girl with hyperventilation and cutting/psychological issues; spent the night and was taken to the doctors
-French lady with an ear ache
1000- session - spending next few hours in silence to get prepared for the resurrection of our Lord, as we have been following Peters story through the bible. Today is Friday, the day Jesus was crucified. We can talk again at 3:30ish, for group discussion.
1220- midday prayer
-realized what an amazing gift I've been given to come here. God has put these amazing people in my path to help me heal and forgive. Forgive Him for not granting me the ability to carry a child and give birth but also forgive myself for being angry and feeling like a failure.
God is calling me to adoption. I have met three people on this journey alone who have been affected by adoption. I feel more ready and sure!!
I have an amazing support system, through family, friends, work and my church. I can do this!!
Lunch- in silence, so we put on music to fill the quiet. I think lunch was couscous casserole with mushrooms. I gagged but ate it because I didn't want to only have bread. We were also served bread; cheese; apple; applesauce; and a cookie. I collected dishes.
1400- shopping at the bookstore: 2-necklaces for myself and a card for Serina.
1530- group discussion
Very different being in silence. I did shopping by writing things down and pointing. Being mute would be difficult. I see why people learn sign language. A new girl joined our group. She had spent the beginning of the week in silence. She was very funny talking about her stories while being silent. "All I wanted was a spoon but no one could understand me. A lady at the canteen thought I was mute, so because I was a "pretty, mute girl, she gave me free water. I couldn't be mute all the time". This girl really, really liked to talk!!
One of our group members, Helen, found out her grandma passed away yesterday. We (I) had a very good cry. Even though she was 94, and lived a full life, it's very sad!!
-Humble - comes from root word Hume or the earth
1715- snack - went to the canteen and had snack with the younger group members. (I don't know if I said it but Sarah, Bridget, Rae-Ann, Kim, Hannah and Kerri are in a different group and in a different cabin). I'm enjoying the snacks that grandma sent with me! Didn't have to buy anything because of it.
1745- workshop - science vs. religion - it sounded interesting but we figured out how to get Wi-Fi, so I did that instead!! Cam and Gale sent me a few videos of Buster and Sophie playing. (Thanks!!!) It's great to see him active and well!! I hope he remembers me once I get home.
1900- supper - 2-fish sticks; mashed potatoes; bread; cheese; apple; and a cookie.
Tomorrow is Serena's 50th birthday. Our room got her a card and we also have a group card. Her discussion group is getting her a cake, so the "adults" that she is rooming with are invited to share it with them. (Thats me! Yum! CAKE!!) I hope she has a good day. Must be hard being away from family on special occasions.
2020- evening prayer
-the most interesting thing I've seen. We have been following Jesus' crucifixion story through Peter. As today is Friday, the crucifixion, the Brothers have the cross lying in the middle of the chapel. All of a sudden, we turned to face it and the Brothers bowed around it. Then they left and opened it up to the congregation. There are about 200 people waiting on their knees, to put their forehead on the cross. It very powerful. God gave us this great gift - Jesus!!